R.I.P Zemfira
(Jan 24, 1999-Sept 1, 2012)
(Jan 24, 1999-Sept 1, 2012)
September 1st, 2012.
Where most aliens around the world were celebrating the life of Twins Tom and Bill Kauiltz, a tragic story looms in the shadow.
Quickly turning the day, from one full of happiness and sunlight, into an overwhelming and somber one.
At Approximately 6:30am, a thirteen year old girl from Russia named Zemfira Shaymardanova took her own life. Only ten minutes prior to it, she wrote a long note saying her goodbye's to the world. Mainly saying good bye to Lead Singer, Bill Kaulitz.
One of my readers brought this to my attention, after hearing about it on Twitter. She said one of her reasons was "Supposedly" due to the fact that her and Bill could never be together. However, she also mentioned that in her last goodbye she mentions how tired she is of life...I can't tell you how much this bothers me. I can't express the hurt. However I can circulate her last goodbye. So the world could remember a beautiful girl, and what was on her mind.
Zemfira Shaymardanova's
-Last Goodbye-
*Translation to english: Unknown*
"Understanding people read to the end."
Though friends I never was ... It's a shame, when suddenly turns that your friends and not friends at all. It's just people. The people with whom you are having a good time. The people with whom you walk on the weekends. The people with whom you laugh at yourself. Fooling around and having fun. But, when you feel bad, they go away. They are created only for fun, for extras, a kind of empty picture. Their meaningless words ringing in their ears. Laughter, lights, flash. But no, no trust, no mutual or heat. It's a shame when you realize that friends - not friends, just some people, whose lives you quietly appeared, and so not much disappear.
And what to say about the family? Perhaps there are only a few people in my family who love me. This is my mommy! Mom, I love you very much, always loved, and will love you always! You're the only person who loves me just for the fact that I have! And thank you for it! Do not forget about dad, brother Valerochka, and about the dog Rose, I love them))) The second man is of course Dad! Dad you're very dear to me, has always protected me from my mother, when she swore, you allowed me to do absolutely everything! And for that I love you! Thank you for being there! And the last person I probably too expensive, this is my brother Valery. Valery, you have always been dear to me! Sometimes you seemed a little strange, but all people have oddities. With you I was always very interesting, you're very smart, kind and caring I see it. You know what I wish guessed the new year? I wish that everyone on this planet to be happy, and at that moment I thought of you, I really wanted, what would you be happy! Find, at last, that the girl and the job, it will be the best gift for me! I love you brother ♥
And the most precious thing I had in the last months of life, is a German rock band Tokio Hotel. I can not imagine how I had lived without their songs ... posters ... and this fanaticism ... The days were desert ... there was no sense of life .. but their appearance, I began to see the world with the new color ... I began to have dreams and the meaning of life ... And I want to thank them for that ... Thank you for having breathed life into me!
And I love their lead singer Bill Kaulitz's group, and I do not know why, just like ... It's almost impossible to describe in words. I remember that day when I first saw him. Something unimaginable flashed through my head. Shiver ran through the back, and his heart sank, it was the day my life changed forever
... And if I when be met Bill, I said to him:
You are beautiful ... Perfect, sexy ... Talented! Mysterious, feminine, stylish ...
selfish! Yes, it is! And who is not selfish? Each of us has notes of selfishness. Romantic ... It is a pity that such people are less in this senseless world. Modest ... And at the same time shocking. You can surprise anyone, but the only positive ... Manicured fingers ... Fingers ... How do I want them to be intertwined with my ... So you leaned over and gently - gently kissed her soft and tender lips my lips ... No matter the distance, no matter what ... I love ... I love you with all my heart, in which you lived forever ... I want to say thank you to your parents .. because if they do not .. would not you ... these songs and my love for you ... I love you so much that even decided to die at the time of your birth 06.30
Ah, if Bill even when you would hear these words, I would be the happiest in the whole world, but he never, ever know ...
I just want to ask for one. Let those whom I road, I did not forget.
While the boys ... See you in a very long time ... over there ... top ... or bottom, you was Zemfira Ilfatovna
-This rips at every string that holds my heard together....
From what I read this girl was not only well spoken, but bright, and very gentle. Seeing children do such things, not only disturbs me. But makes me feel as if I failed in my personal mission at life. After waking up to this piece of news, I feel inspired to help by doing more than just posting blogs and hoping people read them.
I will make sure to do all I can, not to see this come across my inboxes anymore. But for now, Please if you are going through any feeling of loneliness. Or depression, even if you feel like the guys will never hear what you have to say or are tired of Drama in your life or fandom.
And you feel like there is no where or no one to express these feelings to, Please leave an Email in my inbox. My blog's Email is located at the top of the page. Please, do not fall victim to silence.
As for Zemfira, I will be organizing a slide show in her Honor:
Please keep an eye out for the post.
Thank you,
God Bless.
Remember there are people out there who care wholeheartedly. All you have to do sometimes is, just turn around...
-And the Love we Shared.
What an infinitely stupid girl. To commit suicide for something so childish. How profoundly selfish and spoiled do you have to be to end your life over something like this? There are people without anyone in the world, and she had people. There are people who have to fight for their lives every day, and she didn't. And if she was really a fan of Bill she would have listened to his pleas in his songs for his fans to always live on. Instead she acted like she was entitled to happiness without really working and fighting for it the way so many have to. What a truly horrible girl.
ReplyDeleteOkay no offense but you have no idea what that girl went though. true she could've found better way to dealt with it but you don't need to be rude
DeleteWhoever posted a link to this on the app is a sick person and an attention seeker.
ReplyDeleteYes the fact that this happened but shouldn't have had he listened to the boys is tragic.the post on the app is attention seeking and sick for wanting people to know its not ok and if you love them you would listen to them?that they are not at fault for this?yes totally attention seeking and sick.
ReplyDeleteWhat's sick is this happens all the time because people are cruel.selfish.
Hatred is what caused this.you continue to be negative.you should get facts straight before you say stupid things.the post shows a bad thing yes but it also explains the boys are not to blame.
R.I.P Zemfira
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